Beautiful yet Invisible
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A beautiful picture!
A simple photograph of a mother and daughter on a cold winter morning, waiting for the school bus to arrive. It is one of my favorites — my middle daughter and I.
What you can not see in this picture is how I am holding back tears!
What you can not hear in this picture is her repetitive whispers of, “I am sorry Mamma, I try hard to hold it all in — I love you so much! I am sorry I make you cry, I am sorry I can not control myself.”
What you can not feel in this picture is the anxiety, anger, heartbreak, guilt, and confusion gnawing at me! The invisible devastation of a mother not knowing what to do.
A cold morning (one of MANY) on a roller coaster of defiance, aggression, outburst (s), sadness, tears, and screams of: “YOUR RUDE”, only to be followed up with: “I AM SORRY, Mamma!”
Today she locked herself in the bathroom, crying, yelling: “Mommy, why am I this way?!”
Yesterday, she started washing her hair in the bathroom sink (coat and book bag on, 5 minutes before her bus arrived) because she did not in the shower and she pinky promised she would. We don’t break pinky promises in this family!
These are our mornings…
A simple photograph of a mother and daughter on a cold winter morning, waiting for the school bus to arrive. One would never suspect behind the smiles there is an invisible war, an invisible illness, being battled.
As I whispered in your ear during this picture, we will get through everything together! Every moment, every emotion, every appointment! Mamma’s got you girl!
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